25 Sep Going into silence

For the second time this year, I´m going into silence. Ten days of silence. Ten days of listening to what´s going on inside. Listening to emotional fluctuations, intensities of any sensations, the small (or louder) rumination of thoughts, and luckily – doing some mindful movements of yoga as well.

I can´t wait to be in practice, and take in teachings from such experienced and knowledgable teachers.

So I will be off line, which always give ease. And some stress. Ten days of retreat also means I´ll be away from my loved ones, my children. This is the part which is so hard.  And even if I´ve done this already twice before as a mom, the intensity of the guilt feeling never really changes. I´m sure its quite different for all of us, for me its quite present whenever I take some time for myself. Though the value in the bigger picture, of being re-energized, and a re-calibrated mom, is underestimated.

Conclusion: i look forward AND have bitter feelings allured in that sweet note as well… Perhaps I´ll share some post retreat reflections upon returning to external soundly life again:)